Sunday, August 24, 2008

Offcially Coool

So yea I succumbed too socail pressure. I had been resisting now for three years. But the peer-pressure was too much. Everyone has done it. It is the IT thing to do. And we all know how swayable and impressionable I am. So I succumbed. I did I did. Im not proud of the fact..But hey..As I always say live without regrets..Shit happens..Mistakes mold you as a person..FACEBOOK. here I come:P. I am still trying to get the hang of it..So fuckin confusing..I refuse to have 300 'friends'. thats just ridiculous. Yea you heard me thats silly..Who the hell has 300 friends?? Thats just weird and wrong and all sorts of crazies. Ilmuhim I have it now..And no I will not be adding anyone on..I refuse to have my list go beyond ten..Maybe twenty..with a couple of groups..;P

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

An Encounter With Mr.Z

Sun drenched, stretching indulgently on the green banks of the canal she cracks open an eye while trying to cover half a yawn. There poised back slightly arched, legs dangling in unsanitary water, head turned west when she saw him. Just there. Glistening dark brown hair in wild disarray, lower limbs in swimming trunks that have the binary numbers printed in sequence. While the upper body was blissfully naked. Shoulders and arms sculpted to perfection swayed slightly while his abs rippled as he made is slow sensual progression towards her. Hanging around his neck were keys on a key chain that identified him as a biometric grad student.
Strawberry lip gloss tinted mouth curves into a sly smile, resting her lounging body now on her elbows, she takes off her Sophia Loren sunglasses, angling her head flirtatiously. Lowering himself on his knees, tremulous green eyes aligned themselves with her dark brown ones. Oh yummy just yummy.

"Do you mind? You stink, why do you insist on coming to bother me when you smell terrible?"

Note: Z. I love you I my own twisted way.Not everyone is attracted to your fine ass, and it is fine. Get over yourself. And yes I do objectify you..Why wouldn't when you flaunt your goods and brains? I am not responsible for my actions:P I accept your challenge for the run. May the best smelling person win!

Sunday, August 10, 2008


Stole a tag..Found it on my computer so its mine now:P Needed something to do..Why am I justifying my actions to you people?!?!:P


1. Male friend: more then one.
2. Female friend: same as above
3. Vacation: backpacking through a forigen country


1. Time of day: 11 at night..I get cranky its past my bed time
2. Day of the week: none
3. Color crayon: love'em all..expect pink..Yeah thats probably the worst crayon ever


1. Person you talked to that goes/went to your school: anwaro
2. Talked to on the phone: Jassies
3. Text: Same jassies
4. Person who Instant Messaged: aha umm..hmmm..A whole bunch:P I talk on msn by bulk:P


1. What are you doing now: not sleeping
2. Wearing: men pj's in navy


1. Is: Sunday
2. Got any plans: school,lab, friend social work, shopping, reading
3. Goal: avoid being abducted by aliens
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: I will be running on no sleep


1. Number: 3
2. Song: whole bunch..I kissed a girl, mozarts third, the beatles
3. Color: black, neon green


1. Missing Someone: nah
2. Mood: content/cranky
3. Wanting: a treadmill


I am a cuddler: FALSE ew. I have a bubble
I am a morning person: TRUE Oh yea!
I am a perfectionist: TRUE mmhmm depends
I am an only child: FALSE **sighs** I wish
I am currently in my pajamas: TRUE Just said that
I am currently pregnant: FALSE yea..noo
I am currently suffering from a broken heart: FALSE.nope..dont have one of those
I am left handed: FALSE
I am addicted to Blogging: FALSE
I am online 24/7: FALSE
I am very shy around the opposite gender: FALSE what other gender?
I can be paranoid at times: FALSE
I currently have a crush on someone: FALSE I dont do crushes
I currently regret something that I have done: FALSE I never regret.
I enjoy country music: FALSEew.."audio terriorism:P"
I enjoy smoothies: TRUE
I enjoy talking on the phone: FALSE hate phones
I have a hard time paying attention at school/work: TRUE I have a hard time paying attention to anything
I have a hidden talent: FALSE talentless is my middle name
I have a lot to learn: TRUE sure do
I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal: FALSE too boring for secrets


1. Are you currently mad at someone? I dont get angry
2. Which of your friends has the worst temper? The french one and the turkish iraqi one
3. Have you ever thrown something at anyone? no..I dont express emotions
4. Ever had something thrown at you? I am arab..My family is arab..So yea:P
5. When you're mad do you prefer to stare angrily or yell and scream? umm neither? I dont yell I dont scream and I dont stare..I walk away come back and then systematically destory the person infront of me by talking in a monotone voice detailing the many flaws in there character..Im sick:P


1. Has anyone ever thrown you a surprise party for you? Not that I remeber
2. Are you easily excited? no
3. What are you most excited about? adventure
4. If you won a million dollars what would be your first thought? TUTION FEE'S PAID OFFF YAAAAA..I know sad.
5. If you could have anything right now what would it be? ibi smoothie:P

1.Sex before marriage? muslim. Can't happen. Besides this needs two people:P
2. Gay Marriage? watever floats your boat sugar.
3. Lower the Drinking age? Drinking destorys the liver.
4. Recycling? DAMN YES!! THE EARTH IS DIEING LETS SAVE IT!! Huge supporter of this..I know its strange

1. What was your latest dream? no sleepy no dreamy
2. Have any of your dreams come true? no dreams so I dont know
3. What was the weirdest dream you've ever had? ummmm falling off a cliff in a wedding dress? that was my husband in the dream..lool


1. Straight, Gay, Bi? stright..but everyone I think is a little bi no?
2. Do you have a bf/gf? nope.
3. Do you have a crush? one per minute. Im fickle
4.How many beds did you lay in yesterday? um mine?
5.What color shirt are you wearing? pj's whats wrong with this?
6.Name one thing that you do everyday? talk to myself
7.What color are your walls? eggshell white
8.How much cash do you have on you right now? 20 bucks 9.I can't wait till...? APRIL!!!
10.When was the last time you saw your dad? aha six months ago? oh no eight..
11.What did you have for dinner last night? ummm.. oh shrimp and it was lunch:P I dont do dinner
12.Whats the last piece of clothing you borrowed from someone? my moms mini skirt!
13.What website(s) do you visit the most during the day? the university email account
14.Does anything hurt on your body right now? my nose itches


1. Have you ever failed a class? oh yea..
2. Have you ever sung in front of a crowd? after every exam:P
3. Have you ever not taken a shower for 3 days? sure:P
4. Have you ever slept with a night light? no, I like the dark
5. Have you ever danced in the rain? all the time sugar
6. Have you ever lied? cant. I need lessons
7. Have you ever had contacts? yea
8. Have you ever tripped over something stupid? I trip over nothing I swear

1. Samosa, Pakora, Kebab: Samosa
2. Bollywood, Lollywood, Hollywood: whats a lollywood?
3. Love marriage, Arranged marriage: marriage is a dieing institution
4. Honeymoon, no moon: No moon? Huh ?? Of course honeymoon!
5. How many kids would u like 1,2, 3+: none
6. Kulfi, Ice cream: Ice cream
7. Shah ruk khan, Orlando Bloom: both
8. Meenar-e-Pakistan, Eiffel Tower: havent been to either so both
9. Lahore, Khi, Islambad: where is Khi?

still not sleepy...dude..

Sunday, August 03, 2008

Youth Coordinator For Multicultural Girls

Lily-//demonstrating back flips in the water//
Girl 1-' do we have to do that? I hate the water'
Girl 2- 'why are you in the pool then?'
Girl 1- 'cause, everyone is in the pool'
Lily- 'you don't have to do back flips if you don't want to. You can just swim, how about we do laps together?'
Girl 1- ' do we have to do laps? Can't be just float?'
Girl 2- 'Why don't you swim? Its a swimming pool?'
Girl 1- ' mind your own business, I can do what I want, you swim!'
Girl 2- 'I swear your such a..'
Lily- 'ladies'//swims to stand in between them// 'Girl 1 it is a fitness camp you should be at least moving try to swim k? Girl 2 your enthusiasm is terrific buts lets remember that not all of us want to be in the Olympics k? So let's break it up and have some fun'
Girl 1-//grunts// ' but I want to float, why can't I float?'
Girl 2-//rolls her eyes says something obscene in Spanish ---it sounded obscene-- swims away expertly//
Girl 1-//looking at me with her big green slightly reddish eyes//'shes so mean'
Lily-//sighs, mumbles something about not being cut out for this//' hun no she isn't lets just swim together k?'.

Really?? Realllly?? This is what I have been reduced to??? A social worker/psychologist/coach for these girls??? whhhhhy??

yes ladies an gents, for the past couple of weeks, I have been dealing with tween and teen "issues" as part of my stint as a youth coordinator for a fitness camp program thingy.. I love it, I love the outings the energy the movement everything..I just need to find a way to keep the girls mouths shout..duct tape maybe?---Any ideas?

Saturday, August 02, 2008



I confess, I am not always the easiest person to be around. I can get ditzy, self absorbant, strange (mumble to myself all the time) and I can appear to be callous. Although I pride myself on being a good listener (I am a psychology major after all) I tend to underrate my friends problems, Its not that I think they're problems are insignificant, but at times I feel if you make an emotional situation more emotional its terrible. But that is not completely true, what is really is my lack of emotional output. While I am incredibly loyal, I run from emotional situations. I can't handle them, I don't cry, I don't scream, I don't throw tantrums. I hate it, I dont know how to deal with things like that.

Over the years however, my group of friends (they are plenty and on a specturm) have all seemed to accoustom themselves to my lack of support in emotional issues. If you need a problem solved rationally, if you need to rant, if you need someone to kick you in the butt and keep you on track,if you want someone just to listen and nod you come to me. If you want some one to sympathize to hold your hand to cry with you to give you a hug, stay away. I personally don't understand why I do that, its not that I don't care. On the contrary I am very much emotionally invested in my friendships.Yet I am always put in a category of the callous and unfeeling. I get branded as being controlling and judgemental.

Although I have never been in a relationship ( shocking I know, but are you really suprised?) I think that breaking up with a friend is much harder then breaking up with a lover. I hate playing coy games, I dont do it, I don't know how to do it. I think at times where saying nothing is the best course of action, my tongue betrays me and says things that further cement me in the unfeeling category.

I understand that people grow apart, that people come and go. More so then alot of people, I have never stayed long enough in a part the world or country to claim stability and life long friends. But over the years, I have learned that if you open you mind your heart and yourself to the world people that will never cease to amaze you will find themselves at your door step. While the traditional would brand my array of friendships as unconventional, and uncharacterstic for a woman of arabic and muslim traditions. I view them as a testment to my love of people and adventure. While I have kept many friendships, I have managed to alienate just as many.