Saturday, January 31, 2009

When I grow up..

I wanna be..

-a mechanic
-a firefighter
-a police officer
-a lawyer
-a dancer
-a photographer
-a cook
-an olympic athelete
-an astronaut
-a nasa controller
-a writer
-a brain surgeon
-a rural health practionar
-a make up artist
-a photojournalist
-a business starter
-a noble peace prize winner
-a researcher
-a medical doctor
-a professor
-a barista
-an owner of a coffee shop
-an owner of cupcake shop
-an owner of a shoe and bag shop
-a pilot
-an actress
-an interior designer
-a plane assembler
-a mountie (RCMP)

found that out from my diaries,.. at seven, this is everything I NEEDED to all in one year.. Wow kids are strange eh?

just in case your curious..

I still wanna do them all!!!!


I need to go study..

stay stinky lovelys

Saturday, January 24, 2009

I confess

The Honesty tag

Sooo I have been tag by my lovley swaish/princess (see side bar for her url and her constant insanity, but hands off shes spoken for). So yea ten honest things about me.. That you don't know already...thats hard shit..I mean I am pretty much an open boring bland book..But lets see if we can drudge up anything...

1) I love rules, thus my religion gives me rules. Frustrates me at times but I abide by them cause I NEED structure..

2)I was an atheist when I was 13-14. My room was stacked with books from every religion in the world..I reverted to islam (honestly did an entire ceremony for myself) when I was 14. Personal decision, decided that this was the strictest religion so the chances of being screwed were somewhat limited.

3)I HATE labels, when your a muslim girl you get ALOT of labels..And being different just doesnt click with people.. I got and still get in trouble for just trying to be true to myself. I dont beleive that if your muslim you need to be so narrow minded. I dont mind the jews, the gays, the bi's, the whites, the blacks the watevers. On the contrary I surround myself with them..You know why? Cause they are different they are them they are free. And thats a beautiful thing

4)Ignorance pisses me off. Bending to fit a social 'box' pisses me off. No I dont have to rebel to have gay friends and no I dont need to be in hawza to pray five times a day. I dont need to drink, I dont need to sleep around , or to take off my scarf to validate that I am a westerner at heart. I am proud of who I am, without the boxes or the labels

5)I get what I want.Simply said. I work like a horse and a slave, nothing is ever handed to me nor do I expect to. I want it I go after it, I fall, I cry, who doesnt? But in the end I get it. always do.

6)I am an adaptable person, put me in the middle of the desert(daddy dearest did that when we moved to kuwait) and I will find my niche. I may whine and moan about it (big crybaby right here folks) but I manage, no I propser;)

7)I love to laugh, talk and look at things. Everything amuses me. The world is a big lovely joke and its mine to laugh at

8)My family has failed me..BIG time..But thats ok, I still carry scars and all that melodramatic bullshit but its made me a stronger person

9)I used to be so emotional as a child. but the world kicks you around some. Now will I dont deny emotions they are more subdude and rational..much more rational and controlled..bordering on nonexistent sometimes:P

10)While I am social (at times too much so) I tend to be generally lonely. I havent figured out weither its by design or chance.

dear god..that was brutal...

ok people..

your it!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

You know your Canadian when..Part Deux

Procastinating..bite me:P

When abroad, you have a cold fear that somebody might mistake you for an American. You make a point of deliberately being kind to locals just to make it clear you are a Canadian.--> when I was in the middle east I had the Canadian flag on my backpack:P Still was asked if I was american..not impressed

You can play road hockey on skates. --> of course..who doesnt?

You know that Canadian Tire on any Saturday is busier than the toy stores before Christmas.--> Canadian Tire is just as fun as a toy store:P

You are in grade 12, not the 12th grade--.damn right

You've ever had your tongue frozen to something--> something and someone;)

Your local newspaper covers the national news on 2 pages, but requires 6 pages for hockey.-->*sighs* damn sens..

You know that the four seasons means: winter, still winter, almost winter, and road work/construction--> LOVIN IT!!

You design your Halloween costume to fit over a snowsuit.--> totally had my cape enlarge to fit my jacket under it:P

You have at least one ROOTS sweatshirt that always smells like cigarettes and beer.--> more of ciggeretes, the neuro lab floor and coffee:P

You find it difficult to explain "milk in a bag" to non-Canadians, and even more difficult to describe the "snippy-thing" used on bag corners. (Bonus points if your collected snippy-things are stuck to your fridge.) --> I bite it off:P

You're pretty sure you can see Alex Trebek smirking when Jeopardy contestants get the "Canada questions" wrong. Even if you weren't sure of the answer yourself, you consider yourself a hundred times smarter than the idiots who always guess, "What is .. uh, Toronto?"--> I always know the answers to the Canadian questions

You pity people who haven't tasted a "beavertail".--> haram..let me know I will send you some..asap

Someone accidently stepped on your foot. You apologize.You stepped on someone's foot. You apologize, then apologize for making them apologize.--> always

You die a little inside if you can't get your Tim's double-double every morning.-->actually its one milk and one sweetener..x-large.. and more then a little dies:P

You know the difference between real snow and "television" snow -- the white stuff that passes for snow on tv and in films. You scream, "For Christsake! That should be sticking to their pants!" and "Lookit, it's not melting! That's *so* not snow!" when watching 'Winter' scenes--> soooo fake.. rat bastards

You steal stationery from your Government of Canada co-operative education placement because you figure you can find lots of uses for paper with 'Human Resources Development Canada/Développement des Ressources Humaines Canada' written at the top.--> well...I didnt really steal it per se..I 'borrowed' it:P

You know the ingredients for poutine.--> mais oui!

You can sing "O' Canada" in French and actually know what the words mean--> oui

You think Great Big Sea isn't Atlantic-centric enough--> messed me up pretty bad in geography man,

You talk about the weather with strangers and friends alike.--> yuppers

You laugh at Americans for going to jail for stealing cable, but laugh even harder when they get it for free in prison--> messed up man..

You have a Canadian flag that has a marijunia leaf on it rather then a maple leaf..--> hey it was pretty;)

Friday, January 16, 2009

Hyperactivation of the HPA axis baby

Thats right..You read it right..HYPER activation.. ooooooooooffftt Im writing..Well I am supposed to be writing my thesis but I am blog hopping, news hopping, I watched all the youtube vids, I went out for coffee like three times, I have been sleeping in class, snorting (hot) at professors, the voices are getting louder in my head...

basically..Im turning into a shit student:P

why now?!?!?!?!

I need to get my butt in gear!!

thats it

no more bullshiting...

I will be in a cubicle in a corner tucked into another corner in the depths of the library if anyone needs me:P

I will finish my introduction this weekened
I will finish my introduction this weekened
I will finish my introduction this weekened
I will finish my introduction this weekened
I will finish my introduction this weekened
I will finish my introduction this weekened

think if I write this a hundred times I would get it done?

yea..I didnt think so

ok enough!

**deep breath** I shall be intimate with hormones and stress let me know if you need me:P

tc my lovliess

oh before I go...
never mind forgot what I was going to say

this post makes no sense..

stopping now

Sunday, January 11, 2009

ugh--not impressed

Bus STRIKE is still on..oh dear god...i am in a cage!! No


not a cage

a friggin box..thats inside another another box wrapped in duck tape


They have been at it for OVER a month..

*weeps uncontrolablly*

*snifs* dont get me wrong I am all with this union and workers rights and blah blah

and I hate the fuckin mayor..



this strike is totally crumping my style man..

on the plus side..I now have calves of steel:P, thats what power walking with snow to the ankles that has black ice underneath does..

*pets her bus pass* come back to me my love come back to me with the smelly passengers, the pissy drivers, the erratic driving and the late service..come back my love come back

i miss you

Thursday, January 08, 2009


Nerdnation people nerdnation..When you get butterflies and get that stupid look on your are a fuckin goner..Gone and no one said good bye to your sorry ass..People shouldn't feel that excited about school..

it just isnt normal..

I mean its almost like a fetish, a paraphenira, an addiction..

why would you go back and back agian for pain, frustration, humiliation and disappointment?

And not just go back..oh no go back practically skipping to your friggin lectures..whistling, thats all thats missing along with kids dressed in yellow playing hopscotch in a warm enviorment, with a cold drink perspiring, reggae music and ballloons


just disgusting really..

and i confess your honour..I confess..I am guilty of all the above charges and others that the court will not hear about:P

all this headach to tell you losers what classes im taking this semster:P Dont feel jealous;)

Ladies , gentalmen and those undecided my almost final semster:P

Thesis: living nightmare..frigggggin helll man...**sobs, pulls her hair** I might start drinking because of this shit** kicks the door** I am upset..really..I hate writing..shit thing to do..oooooooooofffftttt

Neuro Seminar:*snorts* geek alert geek are the creme de la creme of the neuro program gather and discuss --hold your breath-- research!!! I know!! Shocking..omg omg:P

Pharmacology:drugs*yawns* and your brain*yawns* been there done that..

Human Sex: yup you read that right..I am taking a porno class!! yaya me!!! I figure why the hell not? Suprisingly my mom was very supportive..i guess that removes any pressure of her having to have "the talk" with me eh? Should be uncomfortable and fun!

ps. I am more then willing to send my lecture slides to those who need guidence lol!

alright my lovelys stay sexhy

Wednesday, January 07, 2009


3athum allah Igrakoum

Tuesday, January 06, 2009


completely and utterly to

subscribed to the original adult mag?---check
subscribed to the kids mag? ---check
bought thier "explorer" tote bag? ---check
considering taking writing classes? ---check
researching for a new camera ? ---check
feeling restless agian about careers? ---check

do you feel a new path creeping up? yup yup. The hell with the brain and all this neuroscience bull crap:P Forging on to the amazon people!!

Sunday, January 04, 2009

All Over

So we all know about what is happening in Gaza.. I won't talk about it cause I feel I have nothing more to add to posts already out there. I am doing my part by protesting, shouting and stomping on the snow here. I have written countless letters(I am canadian thats what we do when we are upset we right scathing letters).I know that you can get donations to them through the red cresent. If you are in north america your best bet is to send it to the middle east to be handled. Personally our family deals with the red cresent/cross in Iraq by the way of kuwait. Just make sure where you are sending it.

I dont do well when I cant fix something..I really dont..

so heres what we are gonna do..

We are going to pray. And for those of you who dont pray or dont beleive in it. Just take a moment, about five minutes will do shut your eyes and send our brothers and sisters who are suffering all over the world your postive energy.

for those of you who want to and can;

The Fatiha
Bismillaah ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Al hamdu lillaahi rabbil 'alameen
Ar-Rahman ar-Raheem
Maaliki yaumid Deen
Iyyaaka na'abudu wa iyyaaka nasta'een
Ihdinas siraatal mustaqeem
Siraatal ladheena an 'amta' alaihim
Ghairil maghduubi' alaihim
Sadaglaho Al3aatheem

In the name of God, the infinitely Compassionate and Merciful.
Praise be to God, Lord of all the worlds.
The Compassionate, the Merciful. Ruler on the Day of Reckoning.
You alone do we worship, and You alone do we ask for help.
Guide us on the straight path,the path of those who have received your grace;
not the path of those who have brought down wrath, nor of those who wander astray.

Translated by Kabir Helminski

May allah be with them in this world and the next. May there suffering be eased and thier wounds be balmed.