In My Defense..

I'm usually a really easygoing outgoing person,though you couldnt tell due to the latest posts;P.I am generally level headed and uncoventional..Im non judgemental and for an arab thats a huge accomplishment.. I have been accused and I have admited to have a limit if not no amount of emotion towards certain things..These things dont include my friend's..I am furiously loyal to my friends..Growing up I never had any trouble making new friends I had a bubbly personality and an infectious good humour..yet I learned to appericate friends, and thus I took care never to hurt them nor allow them to be hurt by the outside..Growing up the oldest I have always had a sense of responisblity towards my brothers and cousins and it extended to my friends..Till this day i shelter them from what I beleive may be dangrous or hurtful. I have seen alot in my life and though I may come on as an air headed ditz at times(which I am) there is some sort of brain matter in my head..

My sheltering of my friends included my critic about thier recent crushs,my truthful yet hurtful comments about themselves or an outcome of a situation.. I was raised to tell things stright out I hate people when they beat around the bush..You have something to say,say it stright out and in my face..

I have discovered the hard way that people are not as receptive as I am of critism nor do they want the truth when they ask for it..The world has shades of grey that I was not aware of ..One of things that I try to"protect" my friends is thier own friends..I hate people taking advantage of peple..I cant stand it, its one of those things where my eyes glaze over and smoke comes out of my ear..Seriously..

But I now began to see things differently, perhaps one should stand back and allow the person they care about get hurt so that they can experiance the pain and learn from it..To me it makes no sense and I dont think it ever will for I listen to advice and I learn from peoples mistakes I may wish not to abide by them but I am always thankful that I had them for a refernce..I guess Im of a dying breed or perhaps I am just something out of the ordinary..

I have decided to stand back..For once in my life I'm going to try to make a resolution..I will try my hardest(it aint gonna be easy) to allow the people I care about make thier own choices,I will remain vague when asked for an opinon and I will read a book about the polite replies one must reply to questions asked by a friend..

Not all my friends seem to mind my stright forwardness, but hey not all your fingers are like each other eh?

So in conclusion I would like to humbly apologize to my friends if I ever held you back from experiancing something you wanted to experiance or if I have ever given an opinon that was rude or inconsiderate....

Je suis désolé