Friday, April 21, 2006

In My Defense..

I'm usually a really easygoing outgoing person,though you couldnt tell due to the latest posts;P.I am generally level headed and uncoventional..Im non judgemental and for an arab thats a huge accomplishment.. I have been accused and I have admited to have a limit if not no amount of emotion towards certain things..These things dont include my friend's..I am furiously loyal to my friends..Growing up I never had any trouble making new friends I had a bubbly personality and an infectious good humour..yet I learned to appericate friends, and thus I took care never to hurt them nor allow them to be hurt by the outside..Growing up the oldest I have always had a sense of responisblity towards my brothers and cousins and it extended to my friends..Till this day i shelter them from what I beleive may be dangrous or hurtful. I have seen alot in my life and though I may come on as an air headed ditz at times(which I am) there is some sort of brain matter in my head..

My sheltering of my friends included my critic about thier recent crushs,my truthful yet hurtful comments about themselves or an outcome of a situation.. I was raised to tell things stright out I hate people when they beat around the bush..You have something to say,say it stright out and in my face..

I have discovered the hard way that people are not as receptive as I am of critism nor do they want the truth when they ask for it..The world has shades of grey that I was not aware of ..One of things that I try to"protect" my friends is thier own friends..I hate people taking advantage of peple..I cant stand it, its one of those things where my eyes glaze over and smoke comes out of my ear..Seriously..

But I now began to see things differently, perhaps one should stand back and allow the person they care about get hurt so that they can experiance the pain and learn from it..To me it makes no sense and I dont think it ever will for I listen to advice and I learn from peoples mistakes I may wish not to abide by them but I am always thankful that I had them for a refernce..I guess Im of a dying breed or perhaps I am just something out of the ordinary..

I have decided to stand back..For once in my life I'm going to try to make a resolution..I will try my hardest(it aint gonna be easy) to allow the people I care about make thier own choices,I will remain vague when asked for an opinon and I will read a book about the polite replies one must reply to questions asked by a friend..

Not all my friends seem to mind my stright forwardness, but hey not all your fingers are like each other eh?

So in conclusion I would like to humbly apologize to my friends if I ever held you back from experiancing something you wanted to experiance or if I have ever given an opinon that was rude or inconsiderate....

Je suis désolé


Blogger ZiZoTiMe said...

WooooW nice post
I think u should keep it the same way when dealing with you friends... I prefer to be honest with my friends rather than lying even if that will keep them closer to u
U got the speech and hope to keep your good friends beside u
Keep it up :)

7:52 AM  
Blogger LiLaCs said...

Zizotime..Merci:D but let me ask you something if you cared about someone would you rather lose them rather then change something about yourself?
I personally want people to tell me that I look like crap today or that that particular boy is a royal a** but not everyone wants that..I dont want to be a cause of hurt to anyone..Im a nice person...on my good days;)

10:41 AM  
Blogger BlueFox said...

Hayeti, my love, I love you. I love you as a rude and inconsiderate arab...If I didn't, I would have filed for divorce yeaaars ago.

I love your opinions, not so much the actual words, but the fact that you have one and aren't afraid of saying it. I wouldn't like you to stop now. The only thing that irks me, the thing you refuse to listen to, is that you can't try to convince me to think the same as you. Tell me your opinions of a certain crush habibti, but don't try to force me into thinking the same.

I love you for caring about me enough to look out for me but you can't pick and choose who you fall for so, please, keep looking out for me and informing me of all goings-on but once you do, let it go a bit??? And accept my opinions as well, and my feelings cuz you know better than anyone that I have absolutely no control over those...

Anihibich hayeti, you are my beautiful boulder ;)


11:49 AM  
Blogger Faith said...

In all honesty..i met you this year and took so little time for me to fall in love with you, i KNOW you're a friend for life..i KNOW i can trust you, lean on you and keep have a beautiful heart, a LOUD sense of humour ;p and ur my galbyyy

and though its good to look out for ur friends, SOME things have to be experienced by that person on their own..because so they can grow, and learn from it, thats the way things work..
you can advise your friends not to buy a certain skirt [YOU PUNK!!:P] you can advise them what to do in a situation..but you can't tell them to control their hearts

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee youu

10:51 PM  
Blogger LiLaCs said...

Blue..Im trrryyinnnnng I really really am...But people make such STUPID mistakes..I feel like a culprit just watching them..I wuv you too cher..Im not rude and I dont want you to think like I do..Im pretty messed up and I dont want you to be like that..

Faithful..You have no control and crappy taste you paid twice as much for that skirt you do know that right?!?!?!

In all seriousness I am not a mushy person I like things with no strings attached and if I interfer its cause i think you making a bloody mistake..But I wont I will try extra going to go find some duck tape..

11:54 PM  
Blogger ZiZoTiMe said...

Hehehe well it seems to be that u're a nice person... Regrading ur Q, I think i want this person to tell me about my mistakes or any bad habits that im doing... But I don't think that i'll change it anyway ;)

8:39 AM  

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